The 12-month year. Gak is fixed already almost 12 months passed in 2014, which means briefly again in 2015 will come. At the time I write this, approximately 2 hours away going towards the new year. A new year, a new spirit, a new life, everything is new, just do weird wrote that new.
Typically, in each new year, people will flock to make resolutions. Make a target to be achieved in the new year. The purpose of making the resolution is to make our lives more self-motivated to pursue something. But if the resolution is pengen-thief-drawstring-that-again-dried-flower-patterned, mending target should not be pursued.
I also definitely make resolutions every year. Resolution in this year, 2014, for example. Contents of resolution 2014 is a resolution in 2013 which has not been achieved. Simpelnya anyway if the resolution of the previous year has not been reached, then will I enter into the resolution of the next year. Similar to 2015.
I Resolutions in 2015 are:
1. Former Human Childbirth book: Seeing the Other Side of the Other
This is one of my resolutions in 2013. Originally I planned that this book is my first book. But it turns out, the book Blue-White was my first book. In 2014, I again put this target on the resolution. Eh, I do not kesampean. Hopefully, in 2015 this resolution will be reached. Amen.
2. Completing Shooting Film Short Story A Dream
If this project began working in this month (December, 2013). Initially the shooting process can be completed in the same year. But because there are some obstacles (most major flooding), so be postponed. I hope that the process will take completed in as early as 2015.
3. Better Health
Yes, this is my resolution in 2015. In the year-earlier before, when I write I always accompanied by Big Cola. As we know, if you drink a lot of soda not good for the body, but somehow if not over a cup of Big Cola, ideas difficult for emergence. But I'll try not to hold-continue to drink soft drinks. I also rarely exercise, rarely sweat, want to try to exercise regularly at 3 days.
For sleep problems, which I usually sleep at 12 and above, will be trying to sleep (at night) at 10. Will I try.
I started trying to live a healthy life from now on. For example when I wrote this, I was accompanied by a cup of hot tea, and pretty good for friends dijadiin writing.
4. Can Speak English
I make this target because remember in 2015 Indonesia is among countries that participate MEA. Well, we automatically required to be able to speak English. I can still talk English, but still stutter-stutter. Therefore, I want to be able to speak English.
5. Sharing Knowledge
Well, this is one of the targets that make me aware of the importance of socializing. I want to share my knowledge to others. What is certain knowledge that I share is what can / controlled by me, write, for example.
6. Motivating Others
I want others termovitasi by what I do. Therefore, I would do good as much as possible. In addition, I also can motivate others through social media, through Facebook status embedded moral message, Twitter or tweet me.
7. Realize All Expectations
Furthermore, I want to realize all expectations. Whatever itu.Setahun was 12 months. Gak is fixed already almost 12 months passed in 2014, which means briefly again in 2015 will come. At the time I write this, approximately 2 hours away going towards the new year. A new year, a new spirit, a new life, everything is new, just do weird wrote that new.
Typically, in each new year, people will flock to make resolutions. Make a target to be achieved in the new year. The purpose of making the resolution is to make our lives more self-motivated to pursue something. But if the resolution is pengen-thief-drawstring-that-again-dried-flower-patterned, mending target should not be pursued.
I also definitely make resolutions every year. Resolution in this year, 2014, for example. Contents of resolution 2014 is a resolution in 2013 which has not been achieved. Simpelnya anyway if the resolution of the previous year has not been reached, then will I enter into the resolution of the next year. Similar to 2015.
I Resolutions in 2015 are:
1. Former Human Childbirth book: Seeing the Other Side of the Other
This is one of my resolutions in 2013. Originally I planned that this book is my first book. But it turns out, the book Blue-White was my first book. In 2014, I again put this target on the resolution. Eh, I do not kesampean. Hopefully, in 2015 this resolution will be reached. Amen.
2. Completing Shooting Film Short Story A Dream
If this project began working in this month (December, 2013). Initially the shooting process can be completed in the same year. But because there are some obstacles (most major flooding), so be postponed. I hope that the process will take completed in as early as 2015.
3. Better Health
Yes, this is my resolution in 2015. In the year-earlier before, when I write I always accompanied by Big Cola. As we know, if you drink a lot of soda not good for the body, but somehow if not over a cup of Big Cola, ideas difficult for emergence. But I'll try not to hold-continue to drink soft drinks. I also rarely exercise, rarely sweat, want to try to exercise regularly at 3 days.
For sleep problems, which I usually sleep at 12 and above, will be trying to sleep (at night) at 10. Will I try.
I started trying to live a healthy life from now on. For example when I wrote this, I was accompanied by a cup of hot tea, and pretty good for friends dijadiin writing.
4. Can Speak English
I make this target because remember in 2015 Indonesia is among countries that participate MEA. Well, we automatically required to be able to speak English. I can still talk English, but still stutter-stutter. Therefore, I want to be able to speak English.
5. Sharing Knowledge
Well, this is one of the targets that make me aware of the importance of socializing. I want to share my knowledge to others. What is certain knowledge that I share is what can / controlled by me, write, for example.
6. Motivating Others
I want others termovitasi by what I do. Therefore, I would do good as much as possible. In addition, I also can motivate others through social media, through Facebook status embedded moral message, Twitter or tweet me.
7. Realize All Expectations
Furthermore, I want to realize all expectations. Whatever it is
you and me
You introduce your name just like that, a helping hand to go away and never want to remember. At first all went so simple, we joke, we laugh, and we talk about things that are sweet, though all sorts of talks only created through short messages. Attention that flows from you and sweet talk when it is not necessary I thought extraordinary.
Your presence brings other feelings. Different things that you have to offer so different and opened my eyes and my heart to the width. I did not realize, that you came to give a strange feeling. There are lost if one day you do not say hello through short messages. Every day there are interesting topics that we talked about, until at last we spoke to the most touching thing is love.
You told me about a former lover and I can feel the feelings you feel. I can understand a woman's longing for attention. Actually, I have given attention it without you know. Could I give attention really feel to you? I heard the story again. And I wondered, "A man just tell his feelings to the woman they consider close."
I churned and put hope. Do you think women have special even though we do not have the status and clarity? Smile expands in silence, everything went just like that, without realizing the love has been dragged towards that might not want.
At first, we did not talk much. it's just that we see each other and with a knowing smile. When speaking via SMS, we were so excited, I could feel the spirit of it through writing. Really I do not believe anything can as fast and as strong as this. I kept telling myself, if this is not love. It's just a momentary interest because I feel something new in your presence. I tried to believe the thought, candamu, and the way you express your mind is the real basis of our friendship. Yes friends, just friends and limited to friends, I have no right to expect anything more.
I never want to remember the memories alone. I do not want to feel the pain alone. But in fact ....
My feelings grow more rapidly, even unrestrained. Who can control the feelings? Who can guess this feeling falls on the person who is right or wrong? I'm not as clever and smart. I'm just an ordinary person who just can feel comfort in you. I'm just a woman who is afraid of losing someone that I never had.
Fault is interpreted attention as love? But I'm also not one instead, if hope you have the same feeling? You've finished because laughter and smile, I believe that you could not possibly make me sad, and the cause tears. I believe you are the new happiness that will give the brightest light. I really trust. Very trusting! And it is folly to be my regret!
It turns out my fears answered already, you're away from me for no apparent reason. You go from me without a greeting and farewell separation. I was struck by the decision do not you tell me. But inappropriate Did I upset? I've never been so nobody you, maybe I'm just a stopover, not a destination. Maybe if you know, I've designed a variety of beautiful dreams that I want to achieve with you. Maybe someday, if God permits, I believe we can make each other happy.
I do not have the right to ask you back, also had no authority to tell you to go home. Are there still needs to force me if you I was never a goal? Not hypocritical I feel lost. I used to joke and be familiar with your little attention, but everything suddenly evaporated, like smoke that lost in the dark of night. Actually it was also my fault, which persist in silence even though I have a feeling that a deeper and stronger. It is not your fault or his fault. But, perhaps not so blind your eyes and mind and heart so defects to know that I love you.
I have to learn to not care and I also had to learn to forgive and let go.
Your presence brings other feelings. Different things that you have to offer so different and opened my eyes and my heart to the width. I did not realize, that you came to give a strange feeling. There are lost if one day you do not say hello through short messages. Every day there are interesting topics that we talked about, until at last we spoke to the most touching thing is love.
You told me about a former lover and I can feel the feelings you feel. I can understand a woman's longing for attention. Actually, I have given attention it without you know. Could I give attention really feel to you? I heard the story again. And I wondered, "A man just tell his feelings to the woman they consider close."
I churned and put hope. Do you think women have special even though we do not have the status and clarity? Smile expands in silence, everything went just like that, without realizing the love has been dragged towards that might not want.
At first, we did not talk much. it's just that we see each other and with a knowing smile. When speaking via SMS, we were so excited, I could feel the spirit of it through writing. Really I do not believe anything can as fast and as strong as this. I kept telling myself, if this is not love. It's just a momentary interest because I feel something new in your presence. I tried to believe the thought, candamu, and the way you express your mind is the real basis of our friendship. Yes friends, just friends and limited to friends, I have no right to expect anything more.
I never want to remember the memories alone. I do not want to feel the pain alone. But in fact ....
My feelings grow more rapidly, even unrestrained. Who can control the feelings? Who can guess this feeling falls on the person who is right or wrong? I'm not as clever and smart. I'm just an ordinary person who just can feel comfort in you. I'm just a woman who is afraid of losing someone that I never had.
Fault is interpreted attention as love? But I'm also not one instead, if hope you have the same feeling? You've finished because laughter and smile, I believe that you could not possibly make me sad, and the cause tears. I believe you are the new happiness that will give the brightest light. I really trust. Very trusting! And it is folly to be my regret!
It turns out my fears answered already, you're away from me for no apparent reason. You go from me without a greeting and farewell separation. I was struck by the decision do not you tell me. But inappropriate Did I upset? I've never been so nobody you, maybe I'm just a stopover, not a destination. Maybe if you know, I've designed a variety of beautiful dreams that I want to achieve with you. Maybe someday, if God permits, I believe we can make each other happy.
I do not have the right to ask you back, also had no authority to tell you to go home. Are there still needs to force me if you I was never a goal? Not hypocritical I feel lost. I used to joke and be familiar with your little attention, but everything suddenly evaporated, like smoke that lost in the dark of night. Actually it was also my fault, which persist in silence even though I have a feeling that a deeper and stronger. It is not your fault or his fault. But, perhaps not so blind your eyes and mind and heart so defects to know that I love you.
I have to learn to not care and I also had to learn to forgive and let go.
Describe of Loneliness
This is not the first, sat alone and watched some paper passing, each arranged in alphabetical strung words into sentences and somehow figure has always been there, with the inscription actually abides by refusing to read and by definition they are. This is not new for me to sit for hours without feeling the heat of concern through short messages. Emptiness and despair has changed its face since earlier, but I keep my head down, trying to ignore the situation, because if I get too carried away, I could die.
Of course you do not feel what I felt I had also missed stored hermetically. I deliberately hide his feelings, so that we are no longer waiting for each other. Does not this all seem far apart as more meaningful? as if I had never bothered, as if I never want to know, secant if I do not have a sense of concern. For me this is enough, just you and me without us.
This time I got it describes the loneliness, or talk about a lot of things you may be very difficult to understand because I've never been, you are very difficult to talk niceties especially if talk about love, I'll yank your ears and raising the volume of songs even sing a song without lyrics, which you can translate it yourself. I will not burden you bear with absurd stories that always you hate. As it used to when you speak love you laugh. Like when we were still together, but I say miss you deaf ear.
Just a simple story that may not want you to hear as an introduction to your bed. You also do not like it when I told you about tears is not it? What if I turned my tears into smiles pretending? Of course you will not see it, as far as I know, you're never aware of and it is possible that your bad behavior is still the same, even though we've got a long separation and eye contact.
Somehow lately deserted once. I like to whisper and hear my own voice. But I was still surprised by the darkness of night there were many stories that could be missed It's about us. Ah ..... now you must be looked away, not wanting to open up old wounds. I also do not want to touch your shadow so that more and more faint, do not want to guess who's got your smile as beautiful as before.
If I can honestly say "PAST" so close to the brain, mind and ear. like there is something going on very close, very intimate, to the extent that can be erased simply by the arrogance of time and distance. is the umpteenth time I secretly he mentioned your name in silence and let the memories follow tickling baby penguin fly, blown away and may be back, but do not know when ..
My new face you can see for yourself, look better and warmer than at the beginning of our separation. We are really talking about the breakup separated? we know each other really forget? if there is "MUTUAL" but why does my heart still wants to tie you up? sometimes a reason for us not to share. In a well-obscurity me and you still live with each other, something that does not ever go should be called what it is. But did you still hold no word uncomfortable when back together. Too foolish if I call this a soul mate? Attachment to me and you do not have status but our breath, our desire to have the same pulse and heartbeat.
Do not be taken too seriously just some stupid network paragraphs to accompany the loneliness that was so long ago came to haunt. Since you are no longer here, since I do and the way you choose to individually,but more often I play with a hard desert spring is undeniable..
Of view looks more serious, deeper and you speak slowly. Yeah, when it's you and I be. :) Lovely. But the past, "PAST" I told you from the beginning, right? "PAST" it is fun.
and between tasks that made my fingers sore campus,
and among the scattered papers,
I still miss you.
Of course you do not feel what I felt I had also missed stored hermetically. I deliberately hide his feelings, so that we are no longer waiting for each other. Does not this all seem far apart as more meaningful? as if I had never bothered, as if I never want to know, secant if I do not have a sense of concern. For me this is enough, just you and me without us.
This time I got it describes the loneliness, or talk about a lot of things you may be very difficult to understand because I've never been, you are very difficult to talk niceties especially if talk about love, I'll yank your ears and raising the volume of songs even sing a song without lyrics, which you can translate it yourself. I will not burden you bear with absurd stories that always you hate. As it used to when you speak love you laugh. Like when we were still together, but I say miss you deaf ear.
Just a simple story that may not want you to hear as an introduction to your bed. You also do not like it when I told you about tears is not it? What if I turned my tears into smiles pretending? Of course you will not see it, as far as I know, you're never aware of and it is possible that your bad behavior is still the same, even though we've got a long separation and eye contact.
Somehow lately deserted once. I like to whisper and hear my own voice. But I was still surprised by the darkness of night there were many stories that could be missed It's about us. Ah ..... now you must be looked away, not wanting to open up old wounds. I also do not want to touch your shadow so that more and more faint, do not want to guess who's got your smile as beautiful as before.
If I can honestly say "PAST" so close to the brain, mind and ear. like there is something going on very close, very intimate, to the extent that can be erased simply by the arrogance of time and distance. is the umpteenth time I secretly he mentioned your name in silence and let the memories follow tickling baby penguin fly, blown away and may be back, but do not know when ..
My new face you can see for yourself, look better and warmer than at the beginning of our separation. We are really talking about the breakup separated? we know each other really forget? if there is "MUTUAL" but why does my heart still wants to tie you up? sometimes a reason for us not to share. In a well-obscurity me and you still live with each other, something that does not ever go should be called what it is. But did you still hold no word uncomfortable when back together. Too foolish if I call this a soul mate? Attachment to me and you do not have status but our breath, our desire to have the same pulse and heartbeat.
Do not be taken too seriously just some stupid network paragraphs to accompany the loneliness that was so long ago came to haunt. Since you are no longer here, since I do and the way you choose to individually,but more often I play with a hard desert spring is undeniable..
Of view looks more serious, deeper and you speak slowly. Yeah, when it's you and I be. :) Lovely. But the past, "PAST" I told you from the beginning, right? "PAST" it is fun.
and between tasks that made my fingers sore campus,
and among the scattered papers,
I still miss you.
At the Distance
What a delight in this distance? I can not look at you and my fingers can not touch the curve of your face. What can we expect from a distance of hundreds of kilometers that separate us? When the passionate longing, and I know you're not by my side. So far we still survive, somehow retain what. Because of that I think right now, your love is no longer real, the rest of the shadows.
In the far distance, could we still pray? Like when we first still close together. I no longer understand the cold gripping moments, you do not sit next to me, also not held me warmly. I no longer understand, when the tears fall, there are only a hand (not your hands) that remove the wet on my cheek. Explain to me, what has been made still want to survive?
I could only stare at your picture. Silently chanting your name in prayer. Hear your voice on the other end. I do all seemed fine, though I did not get hurt, though no tears, so I assure you, that there is nothing wrong between us. And, if there you're okay? Do miss that I have kept a deep will to find common ground?
Honey, I'm tired.
Stay "We"
Don't feel comfortable like that, because we are still so foreign. Do not be so vain, because you know I never again want to repeat, do not do as what you've been doing in our early before the end of us. Again I ask, Don't push me like a child, because we know how it ended. And I do not want to start again like what I've done, such as ending what ever I get.
I do not like the love of the soul of youth, too many things are playing with fire. And I've burned so, I just fell and broke a little, but I'm good - okay ?, not actually ... I still hate you, you who have left me. I still hate someone so sweet when they said 'we' in the course of the story, I try to love again but my heart is still cold, my heart is still in pain, but my heart is still miss you. , ,
Do not act like it's sunny, Because the world is still dark. How could I smile brightly, what you can not see deeper ?. If you know the real me sad, because I've been there, in a position like. Really, I do not like a calculating love, I even could never again believe what love is, and how to fall in love with the right and proper. Due to the fact that love is not just a story about happiness, there is always a point where you will fly high and you're going to fall down.
Maybe I'm just tired, but I'm good - fine. I actually do not. , , Still hate you for what you did, I hate you. Love that has been left in the dark, I still can not do or start something like what I've done, because I still miss you. , ,
I never knew that love of my youth on the day to end like this, we should be happy, I should be happy and I hope You'll be happy. This is the end for us, and I do not want to start again, though with anyone, because I know if we are ever in love Even if a long time passes, we will still remember each other, moments when they have the word "we"
This is What Love is
I was in high school when this happened. I was a freshman going out with who I thought was the love of my life. We did everything together. Cuddled at lunch, sneaked kisses in the hallway, and went out together on picnics and to restaurants. Then, one day he started avoiding me in the hallways and we didn't see each other in the morning or after school as much. The only time I really got with him was at lunch and even then he was talking to his friends instead of talking to me. I went home upset and crying and my mother asked me what was wrong. I told her and the wise saying she told me I would never forget. "In the world, there is love. In love, there is pain. In pain, there is also love. So, therefore, love can be painful yet amazing. So don't worry about him. Instead, worry about the people that already love you for who you already are." She then wiped away my tears and told me that she would love me forever even if I did something horrible. A couple days later we broke up but instead of weeping and crying, instead I said that I hoped one day he would truly find out what love was and went on my way. A couple years later, when I had a child of my own, the same thing happened to them. I told them the wise saying my mother once told me long ago. Then, I told them "That's what love is."
stay strong
Some people have this gift, they love and they never let go. Let me tell you, you need to find a way to fight your gift. One day, you're going to find the guy or girl that you're going to think is the one and spend three years with them. They will then break your heart and tell you that you aren't good enough.
Finding somebody that feels the same way about you is going to be hard, but you will get over it. You will find somebody who does love you for who you are instead of what you look like, or how much money you have. Someone is made for you, I promise.
It has been a month and a half since the guy that I thought was my soul mate broke up with me. He gave me every excuse in the book, but let me tell you, I was in love with him. He made me happy, but it just wasn't working out for him. It took a while before we were friends again.
I spent every night for a month crying over him, but he wasn't worth it. I didn't see that until now. I wanted to just disappear, just get away from everything and everyone, but I didn't. It worked out perfectly though, because I knew that there is somebody out there for me. One of my great friends once told me "you have to go through a few heart breaks before you can find the real true one."
I know, I know, it can be more than a few or even less. It just depends when you meet him.
I wish you all good luck. Trust me, when you think that you are all alone in the world, but you have nobody to talk to, I'm always here. I understand.
Finding somebody that feels the same way about you is going to be hard, but you will get over it. You will find somebody who does love you for who you are instead of what you look like, or how much money you have. Someone is made for you, I promise.
It has been a month and a half since the guy that I thought was my soul mate broke up with me. He gave me every excuse in the book, but let me tell you, I was in love with him. He made me happy, but it just wasn't working out for him. It took a while before we were friends again.
I spent every night for a month crying over him, but he wasn't worth it. I didn't see that until now. I wanted to just disappear, just get away from everything and everyone, but I didn't. It worked out perfectly though, because I knew that there is somebody out there for me. One of my great friends once told me "you have to go through a few heart breaks before you can find the real true one."
I know, I know, it can be more than a few or even less. It just depends when you meet him.
I wish you all good luck. Trust me, when you think that you are all alone in the world, but you have nobody to talk to, I'm always here. I understand.
